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Pandemic Ponderings: Day Twenty – Aurora Leigh (Part Four)

And the Aurora Leigh saga continues! We are on Book Four and practically half way there! This section focuses quite a bit on the relationship between Aurora and Romney, and I think most of all, we feel sorry for Aurora here. Things have not gone the way she would have liked, and her prospects for marriage soon become uncertain…

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Aurora Leigh – Book IV

I kissed the lips that ended.–’So indeed
He loves you, Marian?’
                    ‘Loves me!’ She looked up
With a child’s wonder when you ask him first
Who made the sun–a puzzled blush, that grew,
Then broke off in a rapid radiant smile
Of sure solution. ‘Loves me! he loves all,–
And me, of course. He had not asked me else
To work with him for ever, and be his wife.’
Her words reproved me. This perhaps was love–
To have its hands too full of gifts to give,
For putting out a hand to take a gift;
To love so much, the perfect round of love
Includes, in strictly conclusion, the being loved;
As Eden-dew went up and fell again,
Enough for watering Eden. Obviously
She had not thought about his love at all:
The cataracts of her soul had poured themselves
And risen self-crowned in rainbow; would she ask
Who crowned her?–it sufficed that she was crowned.
With women of my class, ’tis otherwise:
We haggle for the small change of our gold,
And so much love, accord, for so much love,
Rialto-prices. Are we therefore wrong?
If marriage be a contract, look to it then,
Contracting parties should be equal, just;
Bit if, a simple fealty on one side,
A mere religion,–right to give, is all,
And certain brides of Europe duly ask
To mount the pile, as Indian widows do,
The spices of their tender youth heaped up,
The jewels of their gracious virtues worn,
More gems, more glory,–to consume entire
For a living husband! as the man’s alive,
Not dead,–the woman’s duty, by so much,
Advanced in England, beyond Hindostan.

I sate there, musing, till she touched my hand
With hers, as softly as a strange white bird
She feared to startle in touching. ‘You are kind.
But are you, peradventure, vexed at heart
Because your cousin takes me for a wife?
I know I am not worthy–nay, in truth,
I’m glad on’t, since, for that, he chooses me.
He likes the poor things of the world the best;
I would not therefore, if I could, be rich,
It pleasures him to stoop for buttercups;
I would not be a rose upon the wall
A queen might stop at, near the palace-door,
To say to a courtier, ‘Pluck that rose for me,
‘It’s prettier than the rest.’ O Romeny Leigh!

NB: I am half way through my final year assignments, so hope to have some better quality blogs written and published soon – more theatre criticism and book reviews (yay!!!) – but at the moment, I am just sticking with short quotes, poetry and small ponderings, which come to me in the evenings : usually after a day, attempting to write about narratology or French feminism, like today! Never fear, the good stuff will return ASAP!

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Pandemic Ponderings: Day Nineteen – Aurora Leigh (Part Three)

Today, we get onto the Third Book Aurora Leigh. I like this book as it explores the Aurora in her apartment, in London and she is doing small pieces of writing, for magazines and newspapers. For me, it echoes with ‘A Room of One’s Own’ by Virginia Woolf – and that what a woman needs to do in order to write (fiction – but i feel there is still the same sentiment!), is have a room of their own, and perhaps I see this idea within this epic poem/novel. It’s also nice to see the London poet in this extract – the reader get’s an inside into the creative process of Aurora, and an understanding her vision of the world a bit better! It also reiterates her point of not needing a man in order to produce something beautiful!

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Aurora Leigh – Book III

So, happy and unafraid of solitude,
I worked the short days out,–and watched the sun
On lurid morns or monstrous afternoons,
Like some Druidic idol’s fiery brass,
With fixed unflickering outline of dead heat,
In which the blood of wretches pent inside
Seemed oozing forth to incarnadine the air,–
Push out through fog with his dilated disk,
And startle the slant roofs and chimney-pots
With splashes of fierce colour. Or I saw
Fog only, the great tawny weltering fog,
Involve the passive city, strangle it
Alive, and draw it off into the void,
Spires, bridges, streets, and squares, as if a sponge
Had wiped out London,–or as noon and night
Had clapped together and utterly struck out
The intermediate time, undoing themselves
In the act. Your city poets see such things,
Not despicable. Mountains of the south,
When, drunk and mad with elemental wines,
They rend the seamless mist and stand up bare,
Make fewer singers, haply. No one sings,
Descending Sinai; on Parnassus mount,
You take a mule to climb, and not a muse,
Except in fable and figure: forests chant
Their anthems to themselves, and leave you dumb.

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Pandemic Ponderings: Day Eighteen – Aurora Leigh (Part Two)

Day Two of my Aurora Leigh series and I am going to pick out my favorite passage from Book II! This epic poem/novel is on many university courses, and for me after only studying dead white mean in my Romantics to Victorians Module, it was nice to finally come across poetry by a female writer – who has just as must respect. I do think that it’s a shame that Barrett Browning was introduced in relation to her husband – but I mean ‘My Last Duchess’ is literally taught in Secondary Schools across the country, so Robert Browning is bound to be well-know, memorable and someone the tutors love talking about about!

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Elizabeth Barrett Browning. This portrait is in the National Portrait Gallery – surrounded by other writers of the time.
The gallery is amazing if you want to walk through a visual display of your English Literature course!

We were also told how Elizabeth Barrett Browning was an extremely ill person – I don’t think we should have necessarily started with that point. I somethimes think biographical readings are pushed so much within literature, that at times we forget to look at the text, rather than it’s writer. I think that this sometimes impacts how we criticise a text too… but that is a whole other blog!. That is not to say the biography of a writer is an important factor, especially relating to context and modes of expression. But perhaps, we should just appreciate Barrett Browning and that she managed to influence the emergence of the iconic female poet (…people who call them a ‘poetess’ are literally the bane of my existence). She managed to show the world that female writing can be just as powerful as a man’s… especially in such a patriarchal society and artistic field. She was definitely not letting her husband hold her back! We love Liz!

Rant complete… here is my favourite passage from Aurora Leigh, Book II:

Aurora Leigh – Book II

Because the world is mad? You cannot count,
That you should weep for this account, not you!
You weep for what you know. A red-haired child
Sick in a fever, if you touch him once,
Though but so little as with a finger-tip,
Will set you weeping! but a million sick . .
You could as soon weep for the rule of three,
Or compound fractions. Therefore, this same world
Uncomprehended by you must remain
Uninfluenced by you. Women as you are,
Mere women, personal and passionate,
You give us doating mothers, and chaste wives.
Sublime Madonnas, and enduring saints!
We get no Christ from you,–and verily
We shall not get a poet, in my mind.’
‘With which conclusion you conclude’ . .
                                    ‘But this–
That you, Aurora, with the large live brow
And steady eyelids, cannot condescend
To play at art, as children play at swords,
To show a pretty spirit, chiefly admired
Because true action is impossible.
You never can be satisfied with praise
Which men give women when they judge a book
Not as mere work, but as mere woman’s work,
Expressing the comparative respect
Which means the absolute scorn. ‘Oh, excellent!
‘What grace! what facile turns! what fluent sweeps!
‘What delicate discernment … almost thought!
‘The book does honour to the sex, we hold.
‘Among our female authors we make room
‘For this fair writer, and congratulate
‘The country that produces in these times
‘Such women, competent to … spell.”
                                ‘Stop there!’
I answered–burning through his thread of talk
With a quick flame of emotion,–’You have read
My soul, if not my book, and argue well
I would not condescend … we will not say
To such a kind of praise, (a worthless end
Is praise of all kinds) but to such a use
Of holy art and golden life. I am young,
And peradventure weak–you tell me so–
Through being a woman. And, for all the rest,
Take thanks for justice. I would rather dance
At fairs on tight-rope, till the babies dropped
Their gingerbread for joy,–than shift the types
For tolerable verse, intolerable
To men who act and suffer. Better far,
Pursue a frivolous trade by serious means,
Than a sublime art frivolously.’

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Pandemic Ponderings: Day Seventeen – Aurora Leigh

Today’s Pandemic Ponderings is a section of Aurora Leigh, one of my favourite poems from the Romantic period. I wrote my final poetry coursework on this poem, in my first year of university and explored the themes of gender roles and analysed it from an Écriture féminine perspective. For the next few days, I have decided to choose my favourite passage from each book.

For me, Elizabeth Barrett Browning’s poetry really does rock!

From Book I of Aurora Leigh

‘She said sometimes, ‘Aurora, have you done
Your task this morning?–have you read that book?
And are you ready for the crochet here?’–
As if she said, ‘I know there’s something wrong,
I know I have not ground you down enough
To flatten and bake you to a wholesome crust
For household uses and proprieties,
Before the rain has got into my barn
And set the grains a-sprouting. What, you’re green
With out-door impudence? you almost grow?’
To which I answered, ‘Would she hear my task,
And verify my abstract of the book?
And should I sit down to the crochet work?
Was such her pleasure?’ … Then I sate and teased
The patient needle til it split the thread,
Which oozed off from it in meandering lace
From hour to hour. I was not, therefore, sad;
My soul was singing at a work apart
Behind the wall of sense, as safe from harm
As sings the lark when sucked up out of sight,
In vortices of glory and blue air.
And so, through forced work and spontaneous work,
The inner life informed the outer life,
Reduced the irregular blood to settled rhythms,
Made cool the forehead with fresh-sprinkling dreams,
And, rounding to the spheric soul the thin
Pined body, struck a colour up the cheeks,
Though somewhat faint. I clenched my brows across
My blue eyes greatening in the looking-glass,
And said, ‘We’ll live, Aurora! we’ll be strong.
The dogs are on us–but we will not die.’

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Pandemic Ponderings: Day Sixteen – The Wild!

For today’s Pandemic Ponderings, I thought that I would share a picture from when I ventured into the wild forests of Lincolnshire…. and then some pretty poetry. Enjoy!

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My version of the wild!

A Light exists in Spring by Emily Dickinson

A Light exists in Spring
Not present on the Year
At any other period —
When March is scarcely here

A Color stands abroad
On Solitary Fields
That Science cannot overtake
But Human Nature feels.

It waits upon the Lawn,
It shows the furthest Tree
Upon the furthest Slope you know
It almost speaks to you.

Then as Horizons step
Or Noons report away
Without the Formula of sound
It passes and we stay —

A quality of loss
Affecting our Content
As Trade had suddenly encroached
Upon a Sacrament.

Source: https://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/a-light-exists-in-spring-by-emily-dickinson

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Pandemic Ponderings: Day Fifteen – Charles Baudelaire

Having studied French for over seven years, it was no surprise that when it came to looking at French Literature, I would become heavily invested! From Camus and Molière to the infamous Charles Baudelaire…

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This is a photograph that I took in Paris, from the Champs-Élysées on Bastille Day 2018

Today, I thought I would share my favourite Baudelaire poem. It is from his famous Fleurs du Mal collection:

Les Bijoux

La très chère était nue, et, connaissant mon coeur,
Elle n’avait gardé que ses bijoux sonores,
Dont le riche attirail lui donnait l’air vainqueur
Qu’ont dans leurs jours heureux les esclaves des Mores.

Quand il jette en dansant son bruit vif et moqueur,
Ce monde rayonnant de métal et de pierre
Me ravit en extase, et j’aime à la fureur
Les choses où le son se mêle à la lumière.

Elle était donc couchée et se laissait aimer,
Et du haut du divan elle souriait d’aise
À mon amour profond et doux comme la mer,
Qui vers elle montait comme vers sa falaise.

Les yeux fixés sur moi, comme un tigre dompté,
D’un air vague et rêveur elle essayait des poses,
Et la candeur unie à la lubricité
Donnait un charme neuf à ses métamorphoses;

Et son bras et sa jambe, et sa cuisse et ses reins,
Polis comme de l’huile, onduleux comme un cygne,
Passaient devant mes yeux clairvoyants et sereins;
Et son ventre et ses seins, ces grappes de ma vigne,

S’avançaient, plus câlins que les Anges du mal,
Pour troubler le repos où mon âme était mise,
Et pour la déranger du rocher de cristal
Où, calme et solitaire, elle s’était assise.

Je croyais voir unis par un nouveau dessin
Les hanches de l’Antiope au buste d’un imberbe,
Tant sa taille faisait ressortir son bassin.
Sur ce teint fauve et brun, le fard était superbe!

— Et la lampe s’étant résignée à mourir,
Comme le foyer seul illuminait la chambre
Chaque fois qu’il poussait un flamboyant soupir,
Il inondait de sang cette peau couleur d’ambre!

I think often English translations remove the emotion or desired impact which the writer is trying to produces, so I prefer not to read the English translations, when I can help it anyway! French already is a beautiful language but its poetry is definitely something else!

Nevertheless follow this link to see the translation: https://fleursdumal.org/poem/119

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Pandemic Ponderings: Day Fourteen – A Story of Cats

The story of the cats who mostly like me… but on occasion don’t!

Louis

Although we shouldn’t admit it, Louis was our favourite cat. He was ginger. He was our first pet. He always wanted attention! Mum named him after Louis Vuitton, but wanted to call him Smirnoff… we thought best to stick with Louis, in case the teachers at school asked us what our cat was called.

Lola

Next, we have Lola or most commonly known as the Female Garfield. She will fight you to the death, if there is food going, whilst shedding fur as she goes. Her and Louis used to be pals, but now she is the moodiest of the cats, we own… if Lola was a human she would be a Regina George.

Peaches is the cat who will come and sit on your lap, your head, or anybody part she can reach. She loves to pose, as you can see with this entire art gallery full of pictures (pretty good given she is a black cat, right?). But don’t be fazed, she will dribble all over you…

Lola, Louis and Bea

Now, I can’t be certain – but I think the other black cat is Bea (Peaches’s sister). We didn’t have a Bea long, but she liked to sleep on my head at night, and be held like a baby. I am still bitter that my Mum didn’t let me call her ‘Zelda’…

Olive

Then, we have Olive… we definitely have a strange relationship. I reckon she absolutely hates me, but since I’ve been home we have sorta become friends – I think it’s because we are both similar, in that we hate people!

Flora

Yes… this is our dog, but she think she’s a cat!

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Pandemic Ponderings: Day Thirteen – Night Time

The best way to fall asleep? Rereading ‘A Midsummer Night’s Dream’ is always a winner. Here is one of my favourite passages to help you drift into a slumber…

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TITANIA

Come, now a roundel and a fairy song;
Then, for the third part of a minute, hence;
Some to kill cankers in the musk-rose buds,
Some war with rere-mice for their leathern wings,
To make my small elves coats, and some keep back
The clamorous owl that nightly hoots and wonders
At our quaint spirits. Sing me now asleep;
Then to your offices and let me rest.

The Fairies singYou spotted snakes with double tongue,
Thorny hedgehogs, be not seen;
Newts and blind-worms, do no wrong,
Come not near our fairy queen.
Philomel, with melody
Sing in our sweet lullaby;
Lulla, lulla, lullaby, lulla, lulla, lullaby:
Never harm,
Nor spell nor charm,
Come our lovely lady nigh;
So, good night, with lullaby.
Weaving spiders, come not here;
Hence, you long-legg’d spinners, hence!
Beetles black, approach not near;
Worm nor snail, do no offence.
Philomel, with melody, & c.

A Midsummer Night’s Dream, Act II, Scene II
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Pandemic Ponderings: Day Twelve – Emma, the Mother

What happens after you have already blogged about your sister and your friends?… you write about your Mother! I decided to keep with the book theme and ask her what her favourite piece of writing was – she told me it was too hard to choose. So, instead she told me about her favourite genre.

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She said that her favourite genre is Crime because it is exciting, addictive and scary. Each time she reads a new crime fiction novel (even though they are famously full of tropes), she likes how the writers manage to include plot twists or something you didn’t see coming – making each one of them unique. Some of her favourite writers include Kimberley Chambers and Martina Cole, who are leading authors in this field, often writing about underground gang culture… maybe Mum secretly wants to be a gangster?

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Revenge by Martina Cole

However, she does not like horror or anything gory, and especially not on the TV. She said that she prefers her crime in the form of a book, as she doesn’t have to hide behind a pillow during the bloody scenes. Also, she doesn’t mind true life crime stories – which can be quite hideous at times – and has slowly began to make her way through the British Crime Dramas on Netflix. (Congrats, Em). With all this crime and death, I am not surprised that she has constant weird dreams about my brother slicing her head open!

It may not be my absolute favourite genre, but I can definitely see why it is the best selling genre in the book world, and why so many people love it!

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Pandemic Ponderings: Day Eleven – The Pals

I asked my pals what their favourite books are… and of course, they answered with the most nerdy replies going – that nerdy, I had to google what they said! I was nice and let them include graphic novels, manga and stuff (… I don’t even know what they are!). So, here goes… their answers:

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… p.s. Thanks for indulging my blogging needs, friends.


Pal No. 1 – Séan… aka Kate’s Son

This is a graphic novel/memoir by artist, Derf, about his friendship with a young Jeffrey Dahmer – who became a serial killer!!

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Fun, right?

Séan said that he likes the serial killer plot line, and that Jeffrey Dahmer, in particular, is very interesting… I am about 35% more worried about him, after this!

Séan also wrote a blog for me. Check out an even nerdier piece here:

Pandemic Ponderings: Day Four – Guest Blogger!


Pal No. 2 – Klaudia aka My Personal Stalker

Klaudia’s favourite piece of writing is Lore Olympus, a webcomic – something I had never heard of… until today! Apparently, according to Klaud, a web comic is:

‘Baso a comic someone writes and draws and posts online. Most of the time updates at their own speed and for no profit’ Her own words.

Lore Olympus: Greek Myth-Based Webtoon Becoming YA Animated Series

She likes this because it is a Modern retelling of classical Greek Mythology, and really fun! This web comic has gotten quite popular and a Netflix animated TV show has been commissioned!


My other pals did not reply (my emotional blackmail obviously didn’t work on everybody)… but if they do, I will update this post!